“How do I nourish myself? How do I feed me? How do I quench my thirst? What do I drink? What do I eat?
I must only drink that which quenches my thirst and eat food that satiates my hunger.”
– an excerpt from my personal journal. (Dated January, 15, 2015)
Eat to fill your stomach—not to busy yourself with the act of eating. Drink to quench your thirst—not to busy yourself with the act of drinking.
Don’t drink to drink; drink to satisfy your thirst. Seek only the drink that satisfies it. Seek the food that nourishes you and fills your stomach—not what leaves you hungry (no matter how much you eat it). Seek only the food that satisfies that hunger.
What do you eat? What do you drink?
Where do you go and does it fill you with a sense of awe and wonder?
Where do you live and does it feel like home?
Where do you sleep? And is it peaceful?
Where do you pray and is it sacred?
Where do you run and is it spacious?
Where do you fight and is it safe?
What words will you speak today and are they necessary—or are they frivolous?
Why do you do it? Why? Why do you keep going—out of sheer curiosity—or because it will mean something?
What do you hunger for? What? What? Eat that and only that.
What do you thirst for? What? What? Drink of that and only that.
What Are You Hungry For?
We are so confused. They tell us what to eat. They tell us what to drink.
But what we eat—is it feeding us?
But what we drink—is it satisfying our thirst?
If it was—wouldn’t we all be happier, satisfied, cleansed, peaceful and better than we are?
We must reexamine the food we eat and study closely the drink we drink.
Food comes in many forms—it is on our plate, yes, but it is also images, and videos, and texts, and events, and people, and conversations: things seen, heard, smelled, tasted, and touched.
Drink comes in many forms—it is in a cup, yes, but it is also thoughts, and feelings, and ideas, and beliefs, and grace (or lack of it): things that are non-physical, abstract, internal, and hidden.
Are you happy with what is on our plate? The images you ingest? The videos you see? The texts you read? The people you are in constant contact with? The conversations you are engaged in? Do they feed your hunger?
Or are you hungry for something else?
Do you smell something rotten? Do you taste something nasty? Do you hear discordant sounds? Do you touch only jaded things? Are you creating your own disquiet by feeding yourself spoiled food?
And what of your cup, my friend?
Are you happy with what’s in it? Do you like the thoughts you are thinking? Do you enjoy the feelings you are feeling? Are you okay with your ideas and are you satisfied with your beliefs? Do you know what grace feels like? Or do you still thirst to know what is that exactly—what people speak of but that you cannot even fathom to know or understand? Does what you drink on a daily basis satisfy your thirst?
Or do you still thirst for something else?
After drinking, is your lip still dry? Is your tongue still sandpaper thin? Is your mouth still coarse? Do you sense something sharp cutting at the inside of your throat? Do you feel cheated because you’re still thirsty, even after paying the high price for filling your cup?
Cups need to be filled with life-giving water. Plates need to be filled with warm, nourishing foods. But they fill cups these days with empty liquids, and plates are overflowing with solids of artificial origin. We all eat from our plates and drink from our cups and they say we’re eating more than we ever have, and we have drunken more than we ever have, but why are we all starving? Why are we all so parched?
Who’s “full”? Are they fooled? Who’s “quenched”? Are they really drowning?
They say they are not hungry, so they don’t eat. They say they’re not so thirsty, so they don’t drink. But those who say they don’t hunger are often the hungriest. Those who say they are not thirsty are often the thirstiest.
Perhaps being hungry isn’t so bad: because the hungry know we need to eat. Perhaps being thirsty isn’t so bad: because the thirsty know we need to drink.
Those who say they aren’t thirsty, but pant, secretly wish they had our thirst. Those who aren’t hungry, but growl, secretly hunger for our hunger. But thirst for thirst keeps them one step behind. They hunger for our hunger but we’re all past that: we’re on the search for food. Meanwhile, they’re on the search for what they’re searching for.
One day, we will eat because we were hungry.
One day, they will get hungry because we ate.
much hungry love,
Today’s Courage Exercise
Sit in your hunger. Sit in your thirst.
Dare to ask yourself: “What am I really hungry for? What am I really thirsty for?”
Then dare yourself to eat only that which satisfies your hunger; and drink only that which satisfies your thirst.
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